DREAM TRAVEL

i’m often tired…i’ve considered many causes: parenting, anemia, capitalism, boredom. While many of these persist, my primary condition is what i think of as the incessant dream travel that activates whenever i sleep.

I don’t remember a time in my life when re-occurring dreams, talking, walking, premonition, and lucidity didn’t dominate my sleep patterns. Over the years, walking around or verbalizing has mostly faded away - I made a lot of effort to suppress these two behaviors when I realized an ex-partner was taking advantage of this to try and manipulate me into ‘sharing my secrets’! I think we would call this projection but let me not derail the topic here.

These days, I suspect I only verbalize when emotions bubble up to the surface or I lose lucidity in the dream space — it only manifests as laughter or what I lovingly refer to as ‘deep sobs.’

I’m still looking for my community in this shared experience. The new-age scene isn’t my jam, nor is the western psych symbolism. Most recently I’ve picked back up the teachings of Tenzin Wangyal Rinpoche and the practices are challenging but oh so meaningful.